Day 360.5: I hope you'll allow me the indulgence of a second one of these for today. I wasn't sure if it would happen, but then it did. Today I did something I have always wanted to do, but never really thought I'd have the courage to actually do it. Today I played guitar and sang at a local coffee house. And there were people there and everything. And it was terrifying and exhilarating all at once. When I was in grade one, I won the lead role in our class play, "The Little Red Hen". There were some singing lines in the show and, being in grade one, I was pretty open to whatever and gave it my all during my part. I will never forget it, what happened: the grade 8 boys at the back of the gym were laughing as I sang. They may have been laughing at something else, true, but I immediately assumed they were laughing at my singing and I have never quite been able to shake that memory. I've sung in public a few times since grade one, mostly in a group setting, but mostly the idea of it absolutely paralyzes me with fear. Funny...my occupation is primarily that of a public speaker...I have no problem talking in front of large audiences...but add music to that and I completely break down. Singing has always made me really Happy. I do it all the time when I'm alone, or when I'm with my peeps playing Rockband, and it's great fun. It's good for the soul. Lately I've been rediscovering my musical side. I sort of forgot about it for a long time, and it's quite thrilling to remember how fun it is. So thanks to some gentle encouragement from a good Friend, and Tulip's endless patience with me this week as I rehearsed daily, over and over, I did it. Plunged right into the deep end. I did three songs total: "People Get Ready", "Peaceful Easy Feeling", and "Puff The Magic Dragon" (Tulip picked that last one and harmonized with me!). I was so nervous before I went on that I was nearly sick, but I gritted my teeth and just went for it. And it was okay. I got through it. And most of all...I had a BLAST. What a rush!! I loved it, I'm so glad that I did it...it made me really really Happy. #goodtimesgoodtimes #365happydays
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