Day 347: When I decided to extend the "100 Happy Days Project" to encompass an entire year, I realized that I would need to find something Happy to post about on this date, July 11th, and I really wasn't sure what would happen. One year ago on this date we lost our beloved Grammy P. At 98, living a full, active, beautiful and Happy life she slipped away in her sleep. We like to imagine that would have been exactly how she would have liked to go, could she have chosen, and to know that it was a very natural, peaceful passing has given our family much comfort in the days since. For me personally, I felt the loss keenly. I felt very close with her, I spent any time I could with her, and after she was gone I felt an immense void that at times felt impossible to fill. This project has helped, my beautiful Family and wonderful Friends have been my rocks...but even so, sometimes there are moments when there are no substitutes for her joyous laugh and cheerful greetings. In those moments I try to remember the things I learned from her and the fantastic memories we made. She approached life as though every day was the *best* day ever, and even if she may not have always felt 100% she hardly ever let on different. One of my most treasured possessions is a gold chain I wear around my neck. It is precious to me for three reasons: the chain was from my David, the small gold heart was given to me by my Gumpo P when I graduated from high school, and the ring was one of hers. Whenever I feel small or need to remember how lucky I am, I give the chain a squeeze. Today, even though the anniversary was a sad one, was a wonderful day. I am staying with one of my dearest Friends, spent the morning with another (I'll post about that one tomorrow, too much loveliness to post for today), the afternoon celebrating another and her impending nuptials, and the evening with Family. Tonight as I write I am reflecting on just how lucky I am, and how Happy she would be to know that things are moving on, life is beautiful and bright, and I am Happy. As she often said, "Aren't we having fun?" I miss you so much Grammy. I love you. #luckyhotdog #GrammyP #365happydays
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